Sunday, April 30, 2017

Change

Image result for tearsIt's amazing.

One minute the world is wonderful. Birthdays, parties, cake, presents, love. Then, BOOM...you're hit with the news that what you thought was glowing with love, is the glow from radioactive waste. That all your hopes for the future have been derailed. That the love you feel might not be reciprocated.

I'm lost.

I know life hasn't been all sunshine and roses but the one constant in my life was  love. And now that's in doubt. Not for me, but for the one I love. She is lost too.

She's overwhelmed by life...money, work, responsibilities and me. I guess in my ignorance and wishful thinking I missed all the signs. And now, life has turned upside down.

But I'm not giving up. I'll give her space. I'll let her think. And then, when we can talk again, I will do all within my power to make us whole again.

Perhaps I'm a fool. But I believe we can fix this, fix us.

Wish me luck.

Friday, June 3, 2016

We've gotta change!

Hey!
Happy Friday!

Courtesy, respect, tolerance...

What's happened to these words. Did they get removed from the English language when I wasn't looking? Have the people forgotten the meaning? Or are we so obsessed with expressing our point of view, of our being right, that we throw these words away?

There was a time when your right to your personal view was respected by others. Folks may not agree with you but they understood that you were allowed to express your viewpoint freely and  unencumbered. This concept was so highly valued that the founders of our country included it in the Constitution (the First Amendment). It is an idea that separates us from a majority of countries and allows us to be critical of a thought or concept while still respecting the rights of others to express their views as well. It's part of what makes America a great country.

But now, there is NO tolerance for opposing ideas, No civil discourse on politics,family, religion, personal freedom. Now it's "my way or the highway";  if you don't agree with my viewpoint, get the hell out, believe what I say or I'll beat you. Muslim...get out! Gun lover...evil person! Christian...surrender your right to chose your belief! Non-christian...you're wrong and you're going to hell!

This CANNOT continue! If we keep going the way we're headed, we will destroy ourselves from within, tear our country apart, lose that which makes us a great and admirable nation.

We can't change peoples minds or hearts with threats or violence.

It's time for the people of America to step back, take a breath and and realize that ALL views are important, even the ones you don't agree with. That every person has the right to say what they believe and live how they choose. Return to a time of tolerance and respect.

We've gotta change!

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Friday, February 27, 2015

It's Time

Slow start...breath deeply.

Hi.



Let's see if we can get this rolling again. it's been quite some time since I wrote on here. Been a long time since I wrote ANYWHERE.

But, lets try.

No great revelations. Just an attempt to stimulate a part of my brain that's been on hiatus.

Life has changed so much for me since my last post I'm at a loss at where to begin.

But here we are. Here we start.

Slow start...breath deeply.


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Sunday, October 13, 2013

How?

Confusion and change.

Seems all my posts recently have been about these two subjects. It's been a tumultuous and crazy ride. Up one minute and sliding down and out of control the next.

DAMN!

I apologize, readers.  Please bare with me. One more time. Make it or break it!

Whatever happens now will decide my direction. Decisions will be made and  whatever happens will be done.

I pray that the decisions go my way but they are out of my control.

I just have to trust that the power of love is as great as we all hope, all believe it to be.

I have to trust and believe.

It's all I can do.




Saturday, September 28, 2013

Changes

Hey.
It never ceases to amaze me how fast life can change. One day your life is in the dumps and the next your soaring high in the sky.

Now, it's soaring time!

Really enjoying the flight!












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Thursday, July 4, 2013

Celabrate and Remember

I hope everyone has a wonder Fourth of July! Remember, our freedom wasn't free so take a moment to thank those that serve.















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Sunday, June 30, 2013

Mistakes and Redemption

The past is what we always tend to look back on,
but remember the future is what we look to, to move forward.

- Charlee DeSa -

Hi, my friends.

Well, I screwed up.

I won't go into details (those that know me, know what's up) but it seems to be a theme in my life. I get my ducks in a row and then through my own actions, I begin to shoot them down. Sometimes it's just one or two. That's usually easy to fix with minimal damage. But sometimes, I take a grenade to the whole line and really blow the hell out of things. Guess which one I did this time?

This has been my pattern for a while.
This last screw up was a biggie. Not that others haven't been but this one was primo. It cost me something that was the most important thing in my life.  And it ain't happening again!

I'm moving forward. I'm going to change.

I'm working on a solid plan to make this change. Taking better care of myself, focus more on myself as a person and how I need to improve. I'm reading more, exercising. Trying to eat better.

But mostly, I'm asking for redemption and forgiveness. From those that I failed. Those I let down.

I made a huge mistake and by all rights, an unforgivable one. But I'm trying to atone. I'm working to prove myself worthy of forgiveness.

All involved are talking. It's a step. The first of many but at least it's a step forward. I have a lot of work to do. On myself and on how I see myself.

I don't know how this will turn out. But I will work as hard as I can to make up for what I did and save what's most important to me. I will do everything in my power to change and be the man I should be. And I will work to prove I'm worthy of a chance.


Wish me luck.